tooOOoo many feelings

Hello sweeties, how is life treating you? It's currently half past midnight and a school night for me. Things are wobbly. 

It's odd. I feel like summer is brushing against my fingertips, tantalizingly close and yet still out of reach. I cannot wait for the complete absence of any responsibility whatsoever and hopefully not-awful weather. My last exam is this Friday. I hope it goes well but also I do not care at all about anything so can't wait to be done with it all. I don't get it, myself - there are too many hormones and thoughts and feelings and aches and voices whizzing around my body that I feel entirely unprepared to take exams that will define my life and make choices that are going to be my future. 

Unlike many young people and like many others, I don't really.. thrive on any of my subjects at school. There's nothing I excel at, nothing I'm known for that can be quantified or summarized with a grade on a sheet of paper. I feel intelligent, but my results don't reflect how I feel. Am I dumb, or not good at taking exams? Am I bad at most academic things, or do I set my standard unrealistically high? Am I mentally stable enough to deal with the chemicals flooding my body whilst planning my life path or will I burn out? idk.

Aside from all that Teen Angst, I made a wee playlist thing with some songs I've been obsessed with. Excuse the duvet cover that is literally older than me.

I also thought I'd document my Wreck It Journal on here that I got in London. I only started it recently but these are a couple of my favourite pages. 

This was so insanely relaxing to do. Just put on some really loud music and find a nice pen and circle stuff till your heart's content.

I also did the 'draw with glue' page. I know it's all blurry but the glitter was so pretty and looked a lot less interesting when it was completely focused. Look how calming it all looks!

Also I got these adorable shoes I gotta show you guys. They were only six quid and every time I internet window-shop I see places selling them for so much more and feel so smug.

I'm pretty sure I had a pink pair with flowers on them when I was about four but whatever, I love em.

I will always be in love with this song by Lorde, and I don't get why there isn't enough hype about it. It's not available on itunes and there are no official music videos for it. I love this one though - it's stuff like this that really hypes me up about film making and lighting and mise en scene and all that jazz.

Speaking of film making, I finally put the dumb short film we made on youtube. It's been on vimeo for a while but I think it's safe to say most people use youtube a lot more. I'm mad because I can't choose the thumbnail for some reason but I'll sort it out later. Enjoy!

it's being weird and not letting me show it as a video but here's a link mwa

Ok so before I fall asleep on my laptop, I'll see y'all later. I'm thinking 1am blogging is productive blogging. PEACE OUT

Kit x

I SHOULD BE REVISING but here we are

Hello dolls, how are you? I am in the midst of an exam tornado. One down, three to go. I'm taking a break to do this, which I've been avoiding for quite some time, so sorry if it's a bit long. 

In the Easter break we went to London for a few days, which was awesome as the weather was so nice. I took my books with me but didn't get much done - too tired! I think one of my favorite parts was when we went to St Paul's cathedral. It was odd because we've been to London quite often but never done much of the whole sightseeing thing. Anyway, it was gorgeous. Like, I was overwhelmed by the sheer size and beauty of it. COMPLETE ARCHITECTURE PORN LOOK. 

We somehow managed to skip the massive line by going in through the 'easy access' entrance (who knew?) so my mum and I climbed up thousands of stairs and eventually came out in the largest part of the church. It was amazing. It was just so vast and detailed you just had to take a minute to absorb everything. Here are some (illegal) shots I got - you're not allowed to take picture of this but because they want you to spend money on buying their postcards but we did it anyway. Oops.

Just at the top of the dome there's this second, much smaller one. You can see into it a little from the balcony we were standing on, but you can't actually get to it. However, when we ascended to stand on this balcony at the highest point of the cathedral, there was this weeny porthole - it looked down through both domes to the floor below. It was pretty cool, but the funniest bit was watching an Italian mother grip her little boy tightly so that she could lean over and get a good look.

It was nice at the top, albeit very windy and a bit grey. 

We also went to the Museum of Natural History, like we do every year. There was an exhibit about volcanoes and tectonic plates which was really interesting - most of all because it largely focused on the earthquake that happened in early 2011 in Japan. I was there with my mum because she was working with robots for her photography piece she was doing and we actually narrowly missed it by about two weeks. Scary Stuff.

We also went to Martin Creed's exhibition, 'What's the point of it?'. I quite enjoyed it because it bordered between pretentious and hilarious. Some of my favorite pieces included and piece of blutack stuck to the wall and a crumpled up ball of paper.

The best part was definitely the balloon room. It was exactly half full with massive white balloons, and the static was awesome. It was a lot of fun.

My little sister not looking too impressed. We had a great time, honest. 

We also stopped by Cybercandy - the mecca of all sweetshops. I got these Hello Panda biscuit things that I am in love with. They're so cute! They have pandas on them! Playing sports!

look how high def this is omg I can nearly taste them

Also had to buy some knock-off Breaking Bad sweets because how could you not.

Grabbed these on our way to the till as I'd heard about them before. I think they're American as I've never seen them anywhere else in Britain but holy smokes they are so good.

Finally we popped into UniQlo because why not and I got this cute oversized shirt with this wee logo. Happy Kitty.

So that was my dumb overview of London! It happened like two weeks ago so I feel bad but whatever. I'm on study leave now and when my exams finish I'll have another two weeks free while everyone else finishes up, so I'm looking forward to that. Hope you guys had a nice Easter and aren't too stressed about exams!

This is such a nice song, I love it. It's not on youtube but you guys have to listen to Sohn's new single Tremors, it's so good - like crazy good.

- Kit xxx

ALSO SORRY IF I ONLY REPLIED TO YOUR COMMENT NOW I DIDN'T SEE THEM AND I FEEL BAD ILY 

serendipity

Yo dudes, how's it hanging? Stuff has been happening in my life, I guess.

School's out and it feels like spring is forcing its way into our lives - it's long overdue. The weather was great today, so have some pretty things caused by the sun.

Even the cats were taking advantage of the warmth!

So, first day of the holidays. It's been a busy weekend; I came home from school on Friday and had to wash my hair before going to a maths tutor, and after that scrambled to a party. We had to leave early due to my ride being a bit ill but it wasn't a horrible night. After staying over at hers we watched the newest episode of Hannibal - cue screaming - and lazed about. 

That evening I had a date and it was pretty lovely. We went to some indie café where they had non-branded and over-priced cola and I'm pretty sure there was hemp hanging from the ceiling - but we sat in a corner surrounded by glass and the sun streaming in and talked for over an hour. We stayed too long so there weren't enough seats in the small cinema we had planned on going to but we hopped on a bus and went to a larger one in town and saw Noah instead of The Grand Budapest Hotel as previously planned. It wasn't as awful as the reviews said and the visuals are pretty amazing, and we had a running commentary through out which was fun ('I do not want to see Hermione give fake birth!'). I was back a bit late and had to babysit my sister when I got back but I had a great time.

Am loving Sky Ferreira at the moment, and I'm so feeling this song 

I'm meeting up with a friend tomorrow and really need to settle down to some revision. It feels a bit wrong forcing myself to work during the holiday but what can you do? Exams are so close it's scary, I'm woefully under-prepared at the moment. I need some decent motivation - somehow the fact that these exam results will dictate my entire life and affect my uni choices and career isn't quite doing it for me. Despite that I've been feeling good mentally - but maybe that's just the dopamine. 

I love this song at the moment - it's quietly happy (and irritatingly catchy). 

Hope you guys have a good Easter,

-Kit x

luminescence

Hello doves, hope your week is going well - it's drawing to an end, luckily! Tomorrow is our last day of term before we break up for Easter and I can't wait. I really need the rest, highlighted by the fact that today mum and I slept in by an hour. Well done us! We told the school I had a dentist appointment. What they don't know won't hurt them.

Our short film was finally finished - after staying late after school several days to film and then spending a good few hours staring at a mind-numbing screen and overlaying audio and video so they corresponded accordingly. It was worth it though, and we won the most awards out of any of the other films being shown - Best Soundtrack, Best Actress, Best Supporting Actress and Best Director. I'm very proud.

We were randomly assigned two genres to shape it around, but most of us veered pretty far of the track. Never the less, it was such a laugh seeing everyone's films, if a bit bitter-sweet as it was the sixth year's last Oscars.

Some shots from our western/rom-com, 'No Country For Young Ladies'

I'm going to post the full video later I think, I'm not sure whether I should put it on facebook as some people might not want it to be seen.

To celebrate the end of term, have a song with the best guitar riffs by Temples.

-Kitty x

chimerical

 Happy mothering Sunday! Today has been slow as we try and piece ourselves back together for the week ahead. Everyone's a bit exhausted but it was a lazy day so we're not too bad.

I've been struck down with some horrible virus that has invaded my life, but hopefully the worst is over. Despite it I've managed to do two large dance shows and not fall too behind in schoolwork; run-down is my constant state at the moment. On the bright side a very gorgeous and extremely lovely boy has told me he liked me and wants to see me again after spending most of a previously mentioned party taking and catching up. I'm looking forward to next weekend already.

The film we are making for our school Oscar's project is nearly ready too; it should be, as the showing is on Wednesday. I'm a bit stressed (no change there) because we haven't actually finished the filming and I have a lot to edit, and our software is unreliable at best. Fingers crossed everything goes smoothly!

At least this is our last week before the Easter break. I'm really looking forward to it as I'm meeting up with a friend who I barely have time to see nowadays and I'll have a chance to do some hardcore revision (cry). Hopefully a second date will come along as well.

Man, this is two of my favourite things; Iggy and Clueless. I am still so obsessed with this song.

Hope things are well for you,

Kitty x

tumultuous

yoooo lovelies, how is life? Things are a bit up in the air for me at the moment. School is hard but the end is in sight, I guess I've just got to get through it. I've been so busy recently, and the stress of everything is taking its toll on me. I went to a party last Friday after a school concert and talked to some cute people but I felt like death, so hopefully I didn't make an awful impression on them. I'm shattered. 

The other day I got home early in the evening and to escape the house, I went on a run up a big hill to get some pictures of the sunset. It's nice now the days are getting longer. Edinburgh is a sprawling city.

in love with this at the moment

-Kitty x

sand and sea

Couple of shots from a beach trip we took the other day. We found a mysterious stone with a hole punched through it hanging on a tree; no idea how it got there. My younger sister, Edie, thought it was great and took it home with her. It was cold, but luckily we all had a couple thousand layers on so we survived. Finally felt like we were leaving the worst of the weather behind us! That said, it started raining as we got in the car to drive home. Oh well.

Found a great playlist on 8tracks and am getting into some awesome bands at the moment. This is one of my favourites right now, the music video is a bit odd but I love it all the same.

-Kitty x